No, really. I’m really sorry. I know I was wrong and I take full responsibility for the impact this has had. I can probably have a go at trying to explain to you why I acted the way I did, but I am not trying to make excuses and appreciate that, whatever my intention, the actual impact is something for which I must take responsibility.
Elton was right – sometimes sorry does seem to be the hardest word.
But bloody hell, isn’t it powerful?
Sorry takes the wind out of the sails of any argument, any conflict. In seconds, it lays the foundation on which reconciliation can be built.
It has to be sincere of course. An insincere apology can be worse than no apology at all. And ‘The Power of But’ is more dangerous here than anywhere else. “I’m sorry, but…” means that actually I’m not really sorry at all.
[In case ‘The Power of But’ is a new one on you, the word “but” has the power to make anything that came before irrelevant. “I think we’re going to make it but it’s going to be incredibly difficult” makes you think how difficult it’s going to be; “It’s going to be incredibly difficult, but I think we’re going to make it” fills you full of hope and and motivation. Tread ye carefully, for The Power of But can wreak havoc in the wrong place in a sentence.]
I’m not talking about the “sorry” that every British person says when someone bumps into them and it’s not their fault but they’re very British and that’s just what we do. The German stand-up comedian Henning When once said something along the lines that that the way to know someone’s nationality is to take a run up and deliberately ram into them with a shopping trolley. If they turn round and say sorry to you, they’re British.
And I’m really not talking about the sly and sneaky non- apology politicians and other kinds of sociopaths and egotists tend to use, which usually goes something like “I’m sorry if you were upset by my actions”. This actually puts the blame on you for your stupid and unnecessary feelings rather than taking the blame for the actions. “I’m sorry you feel that way” fits into that same weaselly passive aggressive bucket. Ugh, and just in case that’s not enough disgust, may I also add UGH.
No, I am sorry. I am very sorry.
Sorry says that you accept your part of the conflict, and want the conflict to end. You take responsibility for your own actions.
The best thing about sorry is that it doesn’t mean that you weren’t wronged in some way yourself. There are nearly always two sides to any conflict, with each person sure, in the moment at least, of their own position. But the magic is that it doesn’t matter if you can say sorry. And you always have that simple word with you, ready to drop into the middle of a storm and watch as the wind dies in a second, sails empty and flapping in the memory of the gales that threatened to destroy just a few moments ago.
There’s a powerful phrase I heard a few weeks back which has stuck with me. For the life of me I can’t remember where I heard it, and Google can’t help me which makes me think I actually might have misheard it, but as it exists in my memory it’s perfect….
Leaving aside the wrongdoings of others, we ask ourselves “how was I at fault?”
Clearly it has its roots in counselling or therapy of some kind, because even the phrasing of it is beautifully inclusive: “we ask ourselves” not “you must ask yourself”.
And the simplicity of it really gets me. Yes other people may have done the wrong thing. Yes they need to take responsibility and consider how their words or actions may have affected you or exacerbated an already difficult situation. No one is denying any of that.
But let’s put those things to one side for a moment, take a breath, and consider the idea that we weren’t perfect. That we were at fault in some way – how we phrased something, how we reacted… how we were perceived as a result (because, lest we forget, perception is reality of course).
Find your own fault. And then apologise, sincerely and without expectation or hope of reciprocity.
It’s truthful, and disarming, and vulnerable (that word again) and incredibly, uniquely powerful. It’s the start of the rebuilding process. The first step towards a brighter place.
Give it a try. You know that your mistake was just that – a mistake. It doesn’t mean you’re a bad person, just that (leaving aside the wrongdoings of others, remember?) you’ve examined where you were at fault.
Admit you were wrong, Maybe have a bit of a plan for how you might start to fix things. Ask for forgiveness.
Start with sorry, and you’re making a start.
And if it doesn’t go the way you hope…
I’m really, truly sorry.
3 thoughts on “Sorry”
You are absolutely right in theory Mr Bartlett…I use ‘sorry’ – with genuine honesty in both my personal and professional life if I have done something wrong or even if I feel I haven’t but the recipient of my actions is not happy. Most of the time a genuine apology allows both parties to move on without recrimination but I find it is less powerful in personal situations vs professional.
I think so many people see the word ‘sorry’ as an admittance of fault that, not only do they avoid saying it, they also dont recognise it if it is offered to them. Of course this comes from the long-standing precedent set by legal cases where it is common practice to never say sorry as a court of law sees it as an admission of guilt.
On a personal level too many people are never willing to admit they were wrong. People admitting they were wrong AND saying sorry is almost impossible to find…imo.
Yes it would be better of we could all recognise our own faults and admit them in public but as long as there are those who would take advantage of your honesty….its never going to be the general standard of behaviour.
Reblogged this on Olivia McCabe and commented:
A refreshing perspective in a world of blame. In case I haven’t said it already, I’m sorry too!